Saturday, April 9, 2011

Despite the Struggles - I Am Happy to Be an Independent Film Producer

I realize that I often sound like I'm complaining or whining or just plain tired of film producing. It's true that it's exhausting but it's a good kind of exhaustion and I really do love what I do. I have never once dreaded going to work -- even if it's sitting at my desk in my living room.

Do you ever take on tasks in life that you know are sapping all of your energy but you are still excited to be doing them? I pinch myself often thinking about the experiences I've had to date, working with amazing people on some really incredible projects - including an Academy Award winner.

So as I nurse my aching body and brain, I do feel a sense of pride that I took the road less traveled. I followed my dream and allowed it to take me places and meet people and tell stories that I could never have experienced if I hadn't thrown caution to the wind and just did it.

I guess what I'm saying is that despite my wincing and whining, I truly enjoy making movies and I can't wait to make another one. I'm already jonesing to be on set again.

So if your dream is to be a producer. Then do it. Jump in and never look back. If you know you need to produce or you will die then you need to produce. This is how I feel. I would die if I couldn't produce -- well maybe I wouldn't die but you need to feel a really strong obsession for making movies.

Don't question it. Don't give up. Your efforts will pay off. Give it time. Believe in yourself.

Could the process be easier? Yes. Could some of the people I need to deal with be nicer and less crazy? Absolutely. Could I make a steadier living? That would be nice. Is this career worth it? Completely.

In this business, the inmates are running the asylum. And I'm one happy inmate.


Marina DelVecchio said...

I love your site. Every Saturday night, after the kids are asleep and my husband starts watching the UFC fights, I sit in front of the TV and watch Indie films. I feel about writing the way you do about producing movies. It's all I want to do, and it is harrowing trying to do anything other than this -- including mothering. I've written a book -- Drowning Squirrels -- about three different mothers and their impact on one young girl (also the last mother) -- I have an agent for it, and I cannot wait to see it in book form or movie form. I have to say, I also love that you post all these interviews with females in the industry. Great site and content.

Jane Kelly Kosek said...

Hi Marina,

Thank you for your kind words. Just keep writing and you will achieve your goals. Patience and perseverance are a huge part of this business. Good luck!